How this felt all those months ago.

Radical surgery was proposed
You had never bought into anything particularly radical

Ever the level family man
Who wants to walk around with a catheter the rest of his life?


So we try radiation therapy

Your memory begins to fade
Followed by the rest of you

One long year slips into another


I visit for the holidays not knowing

These are your last; mom buys you a new television
The black slab blocks out the living room

One more comfort swept away; you cry and I'm uncomfortable


I try my best to soak you up

You are drying out your skin stretched so thin
Sitting there smoking in your living room

Saying goodbye good

One heart break.

There again fair heart

One lingers long after

Those others are silent


Pardon me this question

Was this the ending then

No other hearts to write
?

In a way my dear friend
If you must know listen

There was not just one heart


But most faded away
Quickly slowly all fade

But for one and this one


Was the heart that ended
Not fading at all but

Catastrophic ending


Ricky Skaggs said it best

No one can hurt you like

Someone you love he said


I admit I do not
Miss her now indeed I
All but forgot her when


A true heart came my way


But heartbreak provides

For beautiful stories

Let my heartbreak again

But why aren't we?

We - only one word
Embraces the whole of a heart undeterred


"When - will we begin

Believing in something we both want again?"


I - said what I should

Reminded of moments all misunderstood


Then - just shook her head

Proceeded to leave nothing else left unsaid.

Some times frozen.

Felt you startle in the midst of flight
Filter through me as a morning might

All my fingers left to fall unwound
Your feet hit the ground

With barely a sound


Found you settled on the highest stair
Frosty moonshine set inside your hair

All the worry that your eyes bestow

You could never know
But you never know


For all the fears you laid at my feet

Flaws must riddle your every belief

You assembled the fleet of your friends

But they can't put ends
Together again